Coming home to normal

by fionalynne on June 12, 2013

There’s something about coming home that’s unlike any other feeling.

I clambour off the bus with my hand luggage and two suitcases (Rasmus has gone directly into the office so I took his home too). Up the front steps. I open the mailbox and fish out the pile of bills, restaurant adverts, and one actually-intriguing looking letter. And then somehow negotiate everything into the lift (I don’t need an excuse today) and up three floors to our front door.

I dump everything on the hallway floor and wander around the rooms, setting all the automatic metal blinds to open, letting light in. The flat smells slightly of dead plant (the houseplant on the dining table had died a tragic death) so I open wide the french doors on both balconies to let the air come through the house.

I’ve had roughly an hour and a half of sleep on the overnight plane from Entebbe and two hours dozing on the train back to Luxembourg. But I’m home.

I sit down at the dining table and open the post. I love opening envelopes. Even if it’s just a bill or another impersonal charity drive, I get such a satisfaction from ripping them open (a trait I’m certain is genetic, having seen my mum fight to get to the doormat first when the postman comes). There’s bills and Danish tax documents and credit card statements that I just glance over to check for any unexpected charges. Deep breath.

I’ve left the best for last and discover a packet of radish seeds from my sweet friend Juliana (Thank you my lovely!) and a card wishing me good luck with my first crop. Rasmus and I have a planting day planned for Saturday.

Then it’s upstairs with the suitcases and I sort all the laundry into piles. I love doing the laundry. It’s my favourite household work. When Rasmus and I divide the chores each time, I always take laundry. Something about the process of something dirty becoming so clean and smelling so good. There’s nothing quite as satisfying as folding clean laundry. I carry the first load down to the laundry room in the basement – with a hotter setting than normal because there’s a lot of Burundian and Ugandan dust to get out.

And then finally I let myself do what I’ve been waiting for and daydreaming of – I strip out of the last dusty clothes and turn the shower on hot. I stay in there a good ten minutes, scrubbing and washing and rinsing until I felt completely clean again, the many layers of red African dust removed and I’m surprised to find there is actually some tan under there, not just dirt.

And so renewed, I head downstairs, boil the kettle, pull out the nettle tea and honey (because after two and a half weeks of big big portions, I am in need of a detox and my digestive system would just like a break please) and turn on the computer to the hundreds of emails, facebook notifications and tweets I have missed.

There’s so much to catch up and so much to do. But I’m easing myself back into it. Because being away? Being so thoroughly unconnected for two weeks? It did my soul good. I got to think more, write more, sit and wait more. And sometimes I was bored, and my fingers itched for my phone. But mostly I just saw more, heard more, tasted more, touched more, smelt more. And I liked that.

Yesterday I was in Masaka, Uganda. Today I am home in Luxembourg. There’s a lot to get my head around, a lot to process, a lot to dive back into. But I’m going to try and take it a bit slower. Savour these moments of recognition and reunion around the flat. Enjoy looking at each and every photo that Claire and Leigh and Tina have taken of our trip. And just enjoy this home kind of normal again.

{ 7 comments }

clean water

by fionalynne on June 2, 2013

She Loves Well Bubanza Burundi

I was drinking in every sight and sound on the journey yesterday. I was in the middle of the backseat of the car, watching out the front window as our driver negotiated the Burundian roads with more confidence than I would have been able to, swerving around potholes and cyclists as we made our way across the country.

I saw a man on a bicycle with five bags of wheat stacked up on its seat. I saw mud bricks laid out to bake in the hot sun. I saw painted signs for renting wedding dresses on one shop wall. I saw the coiffeur and boulangerie and boucherie, and mentally thanked my French teacher for her persistence.

Forty five minutes from Bujumbura, we turned off the tarmac road and bumped our way across the red dust tracks to the community we were heading for, one whose name I’ve known for over a year. It’s a community of Batwa people, a disliked minority in their own country. When they’d been given this land to live on, they’d been told to move their houses to the other side of the hill, so that they couldn’t be seen from the road.

We pulled in, through a newly-painted gate to the newly-built school, to the sound of loud singing. The women and children were welcoming their visitors with song and it sounded glorious. We smiled and shook hands and greeted Amahoro, amahoro! Peace, peace! to each person we met.

And then we were at the well, before I’d had a moment to catch my breath or take it all in. Four taps at a pipe that has brought water up the hill from the spot they found water deep deep underground. This was the well the She Loves women had raised money for, gathering together our circles of grace until the target was left far behind.

And so I stood alongside Idelette and Kelley and Claire and Tina and thought of all the other women across the world that were with us in spirit, waiting expectantly with us for this water to flow. The Bantu women stood with us with their jerry cans ready, and we counted down together, three, two, one, and turned the taps on.

She Loves Well Bubanza Burundi

Clean clear water rushed from the taps into those jerry cans, and splashed out on me and my skirt, and I saw the water darken the material and just loved that I was wet, loved that it was possible to have water spilled on me here in this place.

I stepped back out of the middle of the throng to stand next to Rasmus and smile at him with amazement at what we were seeing and then the tears came. Just joy joy joy. That we were here, that clean water was here, that the women were here – not walking three hours to collect still-dirty water – that the children were here, in the school that would soon be finished and hold the sounds of their learning and growing.

I can’t articulate everything that is running through my head right now, coming out of a week of fascinating and challenging conversations with brothers and sisters from Uganda, Kenya, South Africa, DR Congo, Sierra Leone, South Sudan, Rwanda. And then to be here, in Burundi, seeing with my own eyes what I’d only imagined.

The joy is all mingled up with sadness and shame and hope and frustration and confusion. But it bubbled up and over when the water flowed, and I’m holding on to that moment.

///

The two photos were taken by Idelette and posted on her Instagram feed and the She Loves twitter feed.

{ 5 comments }

right now – May

May 31, 2013

Well, May. What can I say? I spent most of the month putting up with endless days of rain, and now I’m finishing it with the heat of Uganda. It blows my mind just a little bit. This was the month I got to paint nails with beautiful and strong women at a domestic violence [...]

Read the full story →

When justice is at the centre

May 28, 2013

Where to begin? We’ve only finished our first full day of the Amahoro 2013 in Entebbe, Uganda, but already my mind is fit to burst from all the goodness it is being fed with. If you’re lost right now, the Amahoro Gathering is an annual event that brings together African and non-African Christian leaders who [...]

Read the full story →

In which I’m leaving for Uganda and Burundi

May 21, 2013

It’s just five days until I get on a flight bound for Munich and then another for Cairo. And then after a few hours wandering around that airport, board a final flight and arrive in Entebbe, Uganda. FIVE DAYS! I have just so much to do before then. Not least, start thinking about packing. Although, [...]

Read the full story →

the clothes on my back

May 17, 2013

Clothes are on my mind. Last month, in a tragedy that knocked me breathless when I heard about it, over a thousand garment workers lost their lives when the factory they were working in – in which dangerous cracks had very recently been spotted and ignored – collapsed and crushed them. No one can have [...]

Read the full story →

A long weekend in Paris

May 14, 2013

This is one of the beautiful things about living in Europe. (This is how we talk, we Brits – we talk about Europe as a completely separate place we are not part of). Luxembourg is like a little hub in easy driving distance of so many great cities and towns. Brussels? Two hours. Geneva? Five [...]

Read the full story →

spoken word monday – harry baker

May 13, 2013

I love words. I can’t live without them. My favourite songs are the ones where the words wriggle under my skin and give me goosebumps down my spine. My favourite writers are the ones who can spin words like candy floss, making something sweet and enticing. It’s probably no surprise that my love language is [...]

Read the full story →

to be seen

May 2, 2013

When I was a teenager, around fourteen years old I think, I used make-up to try and make a bruise I had look worse than it was. I know, I know. I wish I was kidding, too. There had been this incident in my classroom. One of the popular guys on the other wise of [...]

Read the full story →

with bare feet

April 30, 2013

On Saturday, in a room with way too much wood panelling, but a perfect view out onto the castle in the rain at the top of the hill, I stood up and spoke. I spoke to forty women about embracing their place in God’s story, about looking back at our lives with new eyes to [...]

Read the full story →