Tomorrow is my last day of work and I am just praying that this beautiful weather lasts into next week so I can actually enjoy it from outside rather than from in this ground floor, shady office!
Telling friends that I have resigned have been some of the most childishly joyful experiences these last few weeks. I do apologise if you are one of those friends but it’s kinda fun to see people’s eyes almost pop out of their head:
Me: So we are going to be spending three months in the US this summer while he does the rotation, yadda yadda…
Them: wow, that sounds great! so how have you figured all that out with your work?
Me: I quit.
Them: Whhhaaaa…?!!
Yes, it’s been fun.
I am feeling surprisingly calm this week. Through all the saying final goodbyes to colleagues, to all the filing and organising and deleting of files, the endless handover conversations… I thought I would feel sad but I don’t yet. It’s been over four and a half years of my life and maybe it’s all about hit me on Tuesday when I don’t have an office to come in to, but I don’t think it will.
Because this feels so right. I’ve been dreaming and thinking and planning for a while about what was next and wondering when it would be the right time to make the jump, but it never felt like the right time. And I finally heard that small whispered “go. jump.” And I did it.
I also realise how incredibly lucky to be able to do this now, without any job to jump straight into. The blessing of a husband who is willing to support us both for a few months, who really wants me to have this time to figure out what the right next step is. I don’t have words for how wonderful that feels, how wonderful he is*.
So I will do everything in my power to not take this time for granted. If you ever find me lying inside on a stunningly beautiful day like today you have my full permission to kick me in the butt repeatedly until I leave the building!
We have a church weekend retreat coming up and the bible verse they are using to promote it just seems to describe my desire for this next four months of my life:
See! The winter is past;
the rains are over and gone.
Flowers appear on the earth;
the season of singing has come,
the cooing of doves
is heard in our land.
The fig tree forms its early fruit;
the blossoming vines spread their fragrance.
Arise, come, my darling;
my beautiful one, come with me.”Song of Songs 2:11-13
Yes, the winter is over, the rains are gone. Spring is in full bud and summer is coming… I am starting this next season of my life full of hope and dreams and plans for what comes next!
*it’s his birthday today by the way so a wee bit of cheesy talk is allowed 🙂
