Sisterhood and Small Victories

ā€œIā€™m fantasising about just walking out the door and leaving them to fend for themselves.ā€ My SOS text went out to my closest friends, the ones I knew would not take me literally and yet would know how completely overwhelmed and spent I felt. My phone was pinging back in minutes. Notes of empathy and…

When a Practice Stops Working For You

I went for a walk yesterday afternoon, just as the sun was beginning to go down. Kaya has a cold – nothing serious but enough to make her really whiny – so when she asked to get into the pushchair in the hallway mid-afternoon, I took it as a sign and we headed out together….

What do you need?

It’s been a while since I wrote here. In all honesty, this transition has been hard work. It’s the first time I’ve been a full time solo parent (with Rasmus unemployed the past year, we shared care of Kaya). The pregnancy is making me extra tired, so that I tend to head to bed by…

Coming out of Hiding

We sunk into the sofas in the lounge in the pause between evening prayers and dinner – the delicious smell already drifting down the hallway from the kitchen towards us – and watched the light fade from the sky outside, the darkness approaching steadily from the North Sea to the east. He was not who’d…